Oniontown Pastoral #6: Solace of the Red-Winged Blackbird
The animals were out of sorts yesterday. I trust them to keep me company on Route 19 and District Road, the last third of my commute from Erie to Oniontown, but the cows and horses were standoffish—or maybe they didn’t want to be out and about.
The farmers may not have let them out of the barns. I don’t know. Having lived in cities all of my life, I’m still figuring out how things work in the country. The next time one of my farming parishioners is around, I’ll ask why no cows were eating breakfast at around 9:00 a.m. on Thursday, May 12, 2016—none. And why did I see only a few horses, and those a football field or more from District Road, which they normally hug?
I don’t know these animals personally, but they seem like neighbors. “Hey, there,” I sometimes say while speeding by. “Morning!”
With the windows rolled down and warm air rushing in, I couldn’t help wondering if my beloved companions weren’t shy, but bereaved. Did they somehow sense that my destination was the home of a woman who died much too young? Did they know that loved ones wheeled her to the porch the night before she died for ten last minutes of bird song? And did they see through some cosmic collective lens when her daughter held sweet lilacs up to her nose?
No, of course not. Such magical thinking is a little too flighty, even for me. Still, the congruence was irresistible. On a sad morning, the landscape itself seemed depressed.
And cows and horses weren’t the only ones behaving strangely. Other critters kept running across the road in front of my bulbous, orange Chevy. A brief inventory: a squirrel, rabbit, chipmunk, mole, scrawny white cat and a turtle as big around as a softball.
This last pilgrim was the only one I nearly hit. “No!” I hollered, realizing that turtles can’t hustle. Fortunately, a glance in the rearview mirror showed no turtle, squashed or sound—nothing but pavement.
Never have so many road kill candidates presented themselves to me in so short a span. My thought: “Has a portion of the small animal population gone bonkers?”
A metaphor shouted back at me: “Boy, if this isn’t life, I don’t know what is. Some ugly car is always barreling toward some man, woman or beast.” The roads around Oniontown prove that the vehicle often wins.”
Only one species on that choked up Thursday morning reached out to me: the red-winged blackbird, which is my favorite. Red can be sassy, a Joan Rivers in the family of colors, but this blackbird always makes me believe that the Great Mystery is singing hope.
This solace is only in my head, but I’m fine with that. A message doesn’t have to be factual to be true.
Ten minutes before I reached my destination, four red-winged blackbirds passed just above my Chevy. I close my eyes now and see them again. Their red sashes at the shoulder are peace and gladness, maybe because their canvas is impossibly black. The yellow fringe is a smile and a wink.
How many of us gathered around the deathbed? Fifteen? And what exactly did we pray? I don’t remember. Words can do only so much when parents have to bury their child, short of fifty, and when a truck like cancer can be slowed down, but not stopped.
What do you say from a pitch-black heart-scape? The only prayer that makes sense is a promise. In the end, God will welcome us home.
This promise is a burst of color in the darkness, but that’s all it is, a promise. Why do we fold our hands for prayer? Because, let’s face it, what we have to hold onto sometimes feels slight—a hope that’s as humble as a kiss of red on a black bird. We weave our fingers together and hang on until our knuckles go white.
Or sometimes we join hands when we pray, borrowing bravery from each other.
On Thursday morning we neither folded nor clasped hands. Instead, we rested them on the body, touched the place every one of us has to go. The old promise was so vivid we cried.
Hope, thank God, doesn’t survive on facts. Seeing one red sash of it on a black wing brings on tears, an unlikely share of them joyful.
How ironic, the title and content of this blog…on my way to work today, heading west on I-90, a misty gray morning, 2 red-winged blackbirds chased each other directly into my truck’s grille. I didn’t even have a chance to utter more than an unintelligible grunt. I saw one roll on the road in my mirror, and hoped somehow the other escaped, even though I knew better. Sure enough, I found the other wedged in the grille when I got to work.
Grunt! Bummer, but my mom always insisted that you should never swerve to avoid hitting an animal. In fact, I think George Costanza went on a rant about some critter not holding up his ending of the bargain by not getting out of the way. So did you use needle-nose pliers to get the bird out of your grille? Peace, John
beautiful but sad to lose someone so young…………………… the redwing is our favorite harbinger of Spring, followed closely by the Peepers, also known as Crucifers.
Spring is my favorite time of year. God, through Nature, giving us one more chance to TRY to get it right. God go with you, Pastor John
Hey, Judi. Hope your mending continues apace. Never heard of peepers being called “crucifers.” Gotta check with Kathy on that one. I love what you say about spring . . . God giving us another “change to try to get it right.” Be well (miss you), John
I’m so glad you managed to navigate around all the would-be roadkill. Good job, John!
Hi, Nancy. Yeah, I think critters dashing across the roads at this time is a rural, spring phenomenon. They just lose all good sense. So far I’ve been lucky–just one butterfly casualty so far. Peace, John